Ho hum.

Excited!

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 21. Aug, 2008 – 07:44:18 pm

I'm PACKED! Passport, funny money, little bottles of shampoo, EVERYTHING!

I'm slightly concerned that my bag is too large and heavy for cabin luggage, but BALLS to checking it in. If they moan, I shall simply don all of my clothing. In your face, plane-wench.

I don't have very practical clothes in the bag. I hope I shan't be expected to get muddy.

I have been informed it is Galway Pride this weekend. This delights and intrigues me. Lincolnshire Pride was cancelled this year...quelle surprise.

I am looking forward to seeing Rampage and RunDontWalk again after so long

~~I am trying not to think about the vast quantities of public transport and flying tin cans involved in getting there.~~

I should also probably tell someone I'm going...*rings home*...
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A sister responds...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 21. Aug, 2008 – 03:52:43 pm

Thank you for your help with my sister's query - see previous post. I have informed her.

Hasidic? They were wankers

Righto, dear.
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A sister questions...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 21. Aug, 2008 – 12:23:38 pm

Right. You might know. Yesterday, saw these little rabbi lookin dudes who had shaved heads, with long bits of hair both sides of their face and a little hat on. What were they?!

The poor child is quite upset. If anyone knows, please tell me, so that I can stop her talking at me.

Off to purchase Les Euros now. Il pleut! Merde.
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List!

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 21. Aug, 2008 – 10:16:55 am

I function better with lists. Even if I don't manage to do everything on them, at least I can then berate myself for being a lazy, incompetant shit, rather than just ignore the fact that, yes, things needed doing, but with the lack of written documentary evidence, no one can possibly blame me for forgetting to do them.

You'd think after that introduction that my list for the day was a record of my final acts, things to do before I die, etc and the like. No.

Here is my list, scrawled moments ago on the back of a reciept (of course):

Move off bed.
Shower?
~~Sandwich~~ Cereal.
Sandwich.
GET DRESSED.
Town - get Euros, sandwich bags, white hoody and trainers.
Home. PACK. Pack pack pack!
Passport?!
Frigging train times.
Wax eyebrows.
Have you packed? No. Pack.

Soon, I will achieve item 1 on this list.

Soon.
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Oh, I give in

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Wednesday, 20. Aug, 2008 – 09:16:21 pm

1. Are you married or single?

I am single. I am STILL single. SINGLE. Single.

2. Do you have brothers and sisters?

One sister.

3. Are they older or younger than you?

Four years younger.

4. Have you ever met a famous person?

I know I have. Definitely have. I have no idea who they were.

5. What countries have you visited?

Not many. Ireland, France, the Canaries and Balaerics on family holidays. Oh, and Scotland. It counts! They have £1 notes! Funny money!

6. What do you do on Sundays?

I sleep until 11am-12pm. I probably have a wank at some point, if I can be bothered. I eat 3 scrambled eggs and toast, maybe some bacon, always BBQ sauce. I might shower. I might dress. I might do some washing. I might leave the flat. The only certain thing is the eggs.

7. What kind of people do you not like?

People who make me feel uncomfortable for no good reason.

8. Who has had the most influence in your life?

Probably a teacher. Actually, that's a lie. Parents have been very influencing but not in a wholly positive way.

9. Would you like to be famous?

Only for something credible and obscure.

10. How many different towns or cities have you lived in?

Not many. Grimsby, Huddersfield and Hull.

11. Which do you prefer, sunrises or sunsets?

Sunset. Sunrise would imply I am awake early. No.

12. What was the last book you read?

The new Mil Millington one, Instructions For Living Someone Else's Life. Now I'm reading Margaret Attwood's Alias Grace, because I needed to be able to justify sitting in a coffee shop for an hour whilst waiting for some photos to develop, so I went to buy a book first.

13. What's your favorite food?

I do love curry. And Mexican. Anything hot and spicy. And roast potatoes.

14. Do you live in a house or an apartment/flat or other?

Flat at the moment. Parents' bungalow as from 29th August. God knows after that.

15. How tall are you?

5ft 5" or 6", I'm really not sure. Average, as usual.

16. What are your hobbies?

Fish, pets, reading scandalous Victorian tomes, blogging, chocolate.

17. What's something you do well?

Lie. Terrible isn't it? It doesn't mean I do it often though. When I do, it's very smooth. It comes from growing up with a mother who just doesn't want to know the truth even if she asks for it.

18. Which sports do you like to watch/play?

I don't do any sport. I like to watch equestrianism, gymnastics and figure skating.

19. Are you a 'morning' or 'night' person?

Context please! I would say night. Or v early morning

20. What is your motto?

Oh, balls to this.
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Apathetic hiatus

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Wednesday, 20. Aug, 2008 – 10:36:00 am

I have loads to talk about. Really, there is so much in my head, that I probably should be writing it down for the sake of my sanity.

I feel very disconnected from blogging at the moment. Not the people here - just the place, the act.

Maybe I'll change my mind tomorrow

Maybe I'll just dip in as and when I want to - or have to.

Of course I realise I am writing and posting something about not wanting to write or post anything. Nature of the beast, innit.
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I'm sorry, Row...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Monday, 18. Aug, 2008 – 07:23:17 pm
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It's a shame...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Monday, 18. Aug, 2008 – 06:37:53 pm

...that since I got home from my brilliant weekend my parents have done everything they could possibly do to make me feel like I am nothing but a gross inconvenience in their lives.

I am "lazy", I am "unorganised", I am "useless", I am "stupid", I "never do anything", I'm "bone idle", and - my personal favourite, the one thrown at me the most often - I am "ignorant".

I am "ignorant" tonight because I have decided to sit in my bedroom watching videos of Muse at V on youtube, not sit with them. Never mind that for the past twenty years or so it has been made perfectly clear to both my sister and I that we aren't really welcome in the living room past 7pm, due to our tendancy to try and make conversation, interrupting Emmerdale/Corrie/A Touch of Frost/Holidays From Hell. They are not interested in what I have been up to this weekend, and nor would they care to know.

I am sat in my room because I am tired - exhausted - which makes me irritable. I am also throughly depressed at having had to come home at all. I am therefore being downright considerate by not leaving my room and bothering them. Also, after 3 days and nights of trudging through mud and sleeping on the ground, my tailbone is screaming, and I'm only just stopping myself from screaming along with it. I have to lay on my bed, I couldn't sit in a chair if I wanted to.

But because I am sat in my room in Grimsby and not worrying about what to do with a fish tank and dressing table in Hull, like Dad is right now, I am ignorant. I don't quite understand how inconvenient all this moving is. Apparently.

I am fed up of being called ignorant by two of the most willfully ignorant people you could ever meet. If I am, it is because I have been brought up in an unhealthily ignorant household.

And that is exactly what I told Dad a few minutes ago.

Which went down well.

Now I am "sarcastic" and "a nasty piece of work".

Which is exactly the reason I have been sat in my room not bothering them.

Of course, I wait for them to leave before I burst into tears, else that brings out the "drama queen" and "over-sensitive" remarks.
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I iz back

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Monday, 18. Aug, 2008 – 04:25:23 pm

As predicted, V Festival was awesomeness. Lots of mud and fun.

I will talk more later (you lucky things), but for now...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............
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I've said it before and I will say it again

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 14. Aug, 2008 – 12:18:00 pm

Fail.
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FYI

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Thursday, 14. Aug, 2008 – 08:58:09 am

I can't breathe.
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That's (most of) that.

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Wednesday, 13. Aug, 2008 – 10:36:35 pm

I haven't exactly been enthusiastic about this whole packing malarky, as ye know.

Twenty minutes ago, however, I got out of bed, and started on a cupboard that mainy contained bed sheets (all in need of washing - I couldn't be bothered to do it, so just put them back, and likely bought more), bags of winter clothes/shoes, bags of bags, etc.

It also contained, squeezed in right at the back, two carrier bag's of Steph's clothes, that were folded up and bagged for me just under two years ago and haven't been unpacked since. Carried to different addresses, yes - addressed, no.

So I just did it.

I now have a bag of clothes for the charity shop, and a bag of clothes to put in the bin. I also put a few momento things in there too, that years ago I had wept over the thought of parting with like they were physically her.

I do have another small pile. This consists of what were her favourite t shirts, a bangle from her cousin in Brazil, her favourite boxers, and one or two other bits. I was going to keep these. But instead, after this weekend is out of the way, I'm going to text her to ask for her new address, and send her them.

It was tricky. Things did still smell of her. There were a few long black hairs. Picking everything up provoked a mental image. Blue dressing gown - just out the shower, wanting a hug. Black fleecy trousers - squealing with happiness after changing into them after a very long, cold and wet journey to see me in December. Many, many things, and many images. Only a few winces.

I still haven't done anything with the boxes of cards and presents. They're still at the bottom of the stairs in the bin liner they were brought round in. I think I'll just take them home for now.

But I won't be taking any of her other stuff home, which, after two years, is probably long overdue.

I make no apology for it though. I still miss her. But thank God she's fading.

So if Dad gives me any grief for being decidedly not ready when he gets here tomorrow, I might tell him what I did manage to do - and shut him up with the revulsion of having to remember she ever existed in my life. Ho hum. Can't win them all.

Back to bed.
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Packing Procrastination

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Wednesday, 13. Aug, 2008 – 09:01:14 pm

I didn't want to do it, but the alternative is getting upset that I can't get my DVDs packed symmetrically in the box. Soon as I've done this I'll put a third load of washing that will never be dry by tomorrow on, I promise.

1. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex?
There was that one time... Yes. Many times.

2. How often do you wank?
Depends what mood I'm in. Probably fairly often when compared to all the people that have lied when answering this and said "Rarely". It's something to do on a boring Sunday isn't it?

3. Where do you wish you were right now?
I wish I was feeling settled somewhere.

4. Were you in love with the first person you slept with?
No.

5. Do you have any guilt inside of you?
It has its own gland.

6. Have you ever wished anyone dead, however brief?
Yes, I'm afraid so, but not truly meaning it.

7. Assuming you HAD to be, would you rather be a colour, smell or sound?
I would be a shade of green.

8. How and when do you imagine you are going to die?
I think it will be of horrible unnatural causes. I think I'll be hit by a car or something.

9. Do you think love is forever?
No, just contentment and habit.

10. What is your worst fear for your future?
Being really alone, especially after my parents are no longer around.

11. Do you LOVE anything about yourself? If so, what is it?
No, I don't LOVE anything about myself. I LIKE some parts and LOATHE many parts.

12. Would you lie if you KNEW you could never get caught?
Yes, I'm a very good liar. Not something to be proud of but it has its uses.

13. Could you have sex knowing someone could hear you?
They have done. Mother. She knocked on the wall and threw up for two weeks. I'm sure other people have but I don't really care, given what I have heard myself.

14. What, if anything, do you do to make people do what you want?
Whine.

15. How many times, if any, have you lied answering these questions?
Sixteen.
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P Word

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Wednesday, 13. Aug, 2008 – 05:29:50 pm

Packing Started -|------------------- Packing Complete

Dad is picking me up at 10am tomorrow.

Doom.

*sob*
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Dampener

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Tuesday, 12. Aug, 2008 – 08:36:14 am

Obviously, it's pissing it down with rain. Because it's the 12th August. Obviously.

And obviously it is wholly neccessary for taxi drivers to be wankers at all times.

So obviously - OBVIOUSLY - when I was walking down a very quiet road near work, it was wholly neccessary for the only car driving down the street to be a taxi and for the driver to be a wanker and for the wanker to AIM HIS CAR into the MASSIVE PUDDLE BY THE KERB.

And then LAUGH.

I stuck my finger up at him and bellowed that I'd see him next Tuesday. Ahem. Ladylike.

I am soaked. I am wearing jeans. The jeans are cold. They will not dry.

I am miserable now. I want a hug.
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Last Night...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Sunday, 10. Aug, 2008 – 01:22:32 pm

...Firstly, some apologies:

Lovely Subz, who bore my drunken text message onslaught with bravery, patience and dignity. I have read my sent messages with interest today. Keeee-rist.

I also extend text apologies to my sister, and to my ex-flatmate. And B. And my mother. Arg.

Anyhoo!

I may do a private post later - when I feel less like DOOM - but suffice to say for now that I had a good night last night. There was much laughter and much wine. MUCH wine. And vodka. Vodkas. Also serious talks, and not so serious talks. Talks about Dracula, war, cats, Koi, Muse, Hull's inbred gay scene, fishfinger sandwiches, Innocent vs Tropicana, students, and Gordon Ramsey. I'm sure there was more, but...alkymafrol. And my boobs were REALLY drunk. Bad boobs!

Was a good night.

But has left me with 'leaving Hull' wibbles.

Sigh. My poor head cannot cope with this right now. It needs painkillers, an entire carton of smoothie, scrambled egg, and a shit load of toast. And Super Hans. Did I ever tell you all he is beautiful? He is. I love him. I'm still sooooo drunk.

Tweny past two. Time to get dressed. Off to see SeX Files later. Mmm. Anderson.

Wavey wave for now.
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Yoinked

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Saturday, 09. Aug, 2008 – 02:02:48 pm

1. Who was the last person to call you?
Old-Nick.

2. Where was your default picture taken?
I presume my picture over *there* - that was on my bed at Home Home last August, day after I had my nose pierced, playing with camera settings to try and hide the red. It wasn't posed at all, but I liked it.

3. What's your middle name?
Joyce Eggletina.

4. Your current relationship status?
Single

5. Does your crush like you back?
They never do, it's tradition.

6. What is your current mood?
Pissed off with the weather. Worried about a few little things. Slovenly.

7. What are you doing this weekend?
Had planned shoping today. Want new shoes, new tops, new knickers. However, it is raining and blowing a gale, and I've just done my hair for going out tonight. Bah! I think instead I will tidy my room up, move a mattress, hoover 2 gerbils cages, and drink smoothie. Tomorrow I will do washing.

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
Greenish.

9. Ever been in love?
Yes thank you.

10. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
There are things I would like to change, but I wouldn't, because I don't know if they would be the right things to change. I would've gone to a different university, I think.

11. Have a crazy side?
I have a drunk side, is that the same thing?

12. Ever had a near death experience?
I could've drowned in a pool in Majorca when I was 7. But I didn't.

13. Something you do a lot?
Drink. Text people. Use every glass in the house until they're all dirty and leave them on the windowsill in my bedroom and wonder where all the glasses are.

14. Angry at anyone?
Mildly. Mainly just me.

15. Who can you tell anything to?
Vicky. And more than a few folk on here.

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Bono, Sid Vicious and Fred Astaire. I didn't look that up, I'm just that good at remembering shite.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Watching a documentary on a 14 year old teenage mum. I was a bit tipsy.

18. Who would you do anything for?
I always think there is one person but as time goes by I realise that I probably wouldn't. Maybe my sister, then. Although I have already told her she's never having a kidney for being such an evil cow as a teenager.

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Teleportation.

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Eyes.

21. What do you usually order from starbucks?
Peppermint mocha. I only really go at Christmas really, when these are on the menu as standard and I don't have to look a fool asking for it in July.

22. What's your biggest secret?
I'm actually a mermaid.

23. Favorite colour?
Green.

24. Favorite TV show?
It changes, constantly. Currently The Tudors. Ever - probably Peep Show.

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Not unless it could be described as retro or classic. New stuff terrifies me. With the sole exception of Pocoyo, which I think should have its own channel.

26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
A chocolate digestive and pink juice.

27. Do you speak any other language?
Nein.

28. Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
Oh will you please LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T KNOW!

29. Describe your life in one word, what would it be?
Undiagnosed

30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Yes =)

31. Ever kissed on the beach?
No.

32. What are you thinking about right now?
The kiss in the rain.

33. What should you be doing?
Tidying up. Putting some washing on. Getting a grip. Anything but watching badminton. Ahh, dammit, gymnastics are on now...and then dressage...doom.

34. What was the last film you saw?
I watched Sweeney Todd the other day. The last thing I saw at the cinema was The Dark Knight.

35. What are you listening to?
Sue Barker getting excited about badminton.

36. Do you like working in the garden?
As in...gardening? Let me live somewhere with a garden and I'll tell you. Actually I know the answer would be no. I think I'll be into decking and gravel.

37. Are you on facebook or myspace?
Facebook. MySpace is too glittery, flashing and Americano.

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
Sometimes.

39.What is your natural hair color?
Brown. BORING.

40. Who was the last person you kissed?
Er... Oh. *Shudder*.
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This evening...

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Friday, 08. Aug, 2008 – 07:41:41 pm

Got home. (Yay.)

Had a nice time napping. (Zzz.)

Cleaned out the goldfish. (Messy.)

Paid Council Tax bill of £1.27. (Hmmm...)

Watched Olympic thing. (Fancy.)

Made vast quantities of chicken madras. (Nom.)

Ate vast quantities of chicken madras. (Groan.)

Washed up eveything from last three days. (Eugh.)

Put pyjamas on. (Aah.)

Poured wine. (Glug...)

Had Gu trifle. (*Heaven*).

Waiting for The Tudors at 9pm. (Fnarr!)

...Licking out Gu pot. (Frantic.)

A good evening so far.

Nobody ruin it, please.
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'Lympics

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Friday, 08. Aug, 2008 – 06:38:07 pm

Anyone else watching the highlights of the opening ceremony?

You gotta admit...they got flair, they got style, no bombs...

...everything 2012 will lack, no doubt

I never think I'm bothered about sports events like this but I do like to watch some of it. Swimming and diving, mainly. Makes me smile that we have a 14 year old on our diving team. Aww. Bless.

I prefer the winter sports, far more fun. More opportunities for slicing of fingers with ice-blades, and the like.
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Waffle

by soyunperdedor ^Pro @ Friday, 08. Aug, 2008 – 08:59:05 am

I am feeling distinctly drizzled on and this has set my mood for the day really.

I'm also very hungry, and, following 10am meeting, I might have to go get bread, sausages and sachets of the red stuff.

I'm not a very happy bunny at the moment. For various reasons. I feel like I'm being made to feel very small. Belittled, scorned and laughed at. It's leaving me feeling very hurt, confused, irritated, and, quite frankly, pissed off.

Just don't fuck with me today.
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